Do you ever have one of those days where you just KNOW you're failing as a parent? I have them so frequently now since Aubrey was born. I feel like I can't do enough, be enough, or give enough to make them both happy. I know it's an adjustment period but, it's a doozy and took me by surprise.
I always wanted multiple kids but sometimes I secretly ask myself "WHY did I want this?" and then a day like today happens.
Both kids woke up at 6:37. Aubrey was ready to eat and fussy but Tucker was happy and even attempted to be sweet to her by saying "hey girly" to help calm her down. We went upstairs to start our normal daily routine and he saw his elf, Blinky, with mini pancakes. He was so excited he couldn't wait to eat breakfast *thankfully* so I was able to tend to Aubrey pretty easily. When he was finished I asked him "was that a good breakfast?" and he responded with an excited "yes!" (Makes the trouble of Elf on the Shelf worth it if you ask me!)
The rest of the morning was your typical morning. He's currently loving "Home Alone" and asked to watch it again. I happily obliged. We snacked. We went to the potty. We played with sister. We read.
Then naptime came. Aubrey was sound asleep in her swing and I was laying with him in our new favorite snuggle spot on the couch. His eyelids were so heavy. He didn't even fight sleep but he held me closer, tighter than normal.... I knew he needed more of me in that moment. I decided to forget the to-do list, the cleaning, the laundry, and just lay with him; snuggling the boy I wished and prayed so hard for..... the one who made me Mama. I was giving him exactly what he wanted and giving myself something I didn't even know I needed.
This is exactly why I wanted this. Our day was just another ordinary day but it had so many perfect moments in it.
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